10 September 2009
woke up at 5 yesterday,
spent 8 hours at mac...
meet tecko at mac, then dian came....
dian left, tecko left,
left me.....
saw my 2 buddies,
bernard and dom...
played basketball in schl...
damn fun...
owned domonic lor!!!
went home...
super bored...
look,
i really dun knw what's wrong,
i knw i'm irritating,
i knw i'm sadisitic,
i knw i'm ignorant,
but ever wonder why?
ever wonder who i did it for?
did u even ever wonder why?
seems like no...
u say i dun understand u...
u say i dun choose u better,
u say u are guilty,
u say u are tired,
but ever wonder how to change those godamn things?!
i guess not...
did u EVEN give me the chance to knw why and help you out?
lets see...........no...
i say u should be happy,
i say u should jus LISTEN,
i say u should not be guilty,
i say u should jus stay fine...
i say u should jus TRUST me...
but ever listened?
not even the slightest trust u place in me....
not even the guilt subsided from u...
and not even...u being fine when u should...
tired u say?
and why?
because u didn't even put in ANY effort....
chances are given, community chest are wasted,
for every "GO" u pass thru me, i gave u things which nobody else can get...
i ONLY need 2 things, which is trust and u, listening...
i cant even get a speck of dirt back...
many SOTEs, told me negative things about you,
i shut them up, and think of fabulous things about you,
am i being paranoid you say? heck no!
i put faith,trust and everything on you,
i gambled my fate against my friend's,
for who? you!
my mind was praying that u could change,
i HOPE u will be understanding....
but what the heck do i get back?
nth....
worse comes to worse when ppl
starts to say things about ME...
they say i'm ur tissue,
they say i'm ur punching bag,
they say i'm ur appetiser,
they say i'm nth to you...
did i do anything?
if i were back to my old self,
i would have long told my gang to hack those assholes,
but no!
i am who i am...
i trust you...
yet u say u want end it all....
u say u are tired....
then what about me?!?!
everything was a lie?
i felt DEVASTATED...
do you knw how it feels like?
bet not...
u dun wan tell anything...
i felt extremly irresponsible...
i'm like a fucked-up bastard who is hopelessly
wishing for things which, he himself dun even knw whether
will it come true......
doggone it...
what the hell is fucking wrong?
still, i put all the fault at my side...
so dun tell me u are guilty...
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